Just not feeling it

I have found that there are those moments when you just aren't feeling it as a mom.  You don't know why, but the day starts in such a way that it is only going downhill, and you can't do much to change it.  Today has been one of those days.

 I have a three and a half year old, who wants to be in the middle of everything and enjoys talking non stop.  As a new parent, you wait and wait for your child to say their first word, and then you realize that it only means that they won't stop talking and the questions ensue.  Don't take me wrong, I love my daughter, and she can say some of the funniest things.  But, she also doesn't nap anymore.  So, that means there is no break in the day from the why, what, how, when, and where that she is wondering about.  Now, I also have a 14 month old who has reached the point of screaming about everything.  Today, she has decided that she simply is not happy about anything! 

So, the day began with no school for my oldest, no Bible study for us to attend, and no plans until 10:30.  At 8:30, we were ready to go, my youngest was screaming. I simply sat back and wondered if the day could go uphill.  We made it out the door, and arrived early to our destination.  Played, ate, and I thought that things were looking good.  And then, it came time for a diaper change.  Little did I know that the dirty diaper was oozing out on to me, until we reached the bathroom.  At that point, I decided that we were done, and it was time to head home. 

Until five minutes ago, I really didn't think I would find any peace in the day.  When we walked in the door, I sent up on of my popcorn prayers, simply asking for God's help.  That was about all I could muster to say at that time, because it was either that or explode.  As I sit here right now, I can say, I am beginning to be able to feel not only the strength to go on with the day as a mommy, but also the peace of God around me.  My three year old is asleep on the couch, after asking many times if she could get up from rest time.  My 14 month old is still sleeping.  There is silence in the house!  And I can pause, think, and praise God for reminding me once again that it only takes a second to return to Him, and He will help when you aren't feeling it!  So, with that being said, I am actually going to use this time to rest myself, regroup, and face the rest of the day with a new sense of peace!